magicalyear .

hey , for the second post of the night ,

So , it's 2nd January 2012 ,

2 days of 2012 ,

Trust me , i'm not going to wish

Happy New Year . *why ?

Well , its to common ,

everyone wish that , on new year eve ,

or a few days before new year .

What I wanna say , this year have to be

magical ,

Don't ever missed any opportunities that comes in your way.

never think twice to try something new * i meant positively.

And enjoy your life to the fullest .

Its just , make sure you don't

regret for your actions at the end of the year .

So . good luck , people .

Just hope that this year, will be different .

:)

Beautiful.ugly ;)

Each time I see a beautiful girl , it kills me emotionally ,

I wonder , is it awesome to be admired and praised ,

Do you feel confident to confront others ,

to smile and make an eye contact with everyone ,

Haizz , I'm bad in eye contact cause ,

I've probably lost self confidence .

i feel , UGLY , each time i look into someone's eyes ,

Weird , right .

I don't know , until when i'll feel ugly ,

Perhaps , forever , *awesome .

Dear Allah , I'm really happy with what i have now ,

Everything that I'm not satisfied of is my OWN fault * admit it .

So , Erm 29/12/2011 .

I will remember this date forever ,

Well , the day I've got my VERY OWN PIANO

"jumping here . and screaming "

Its a YAMAHA CLP 320 .

Trust me , its worth it, for beginners and intermidate .

So . (smiling )

I'll never fall in love . * tetiba ayat yang X ADA kaitan ;)

I'll fall in love with those photos in TUMBLR .

okay . now my next target is to own a DSLR ')

Till my next post , LIVE ')

*Enviousity*

Once again , I'm totally frustrated.

I'm a total failure when it comes to making the right decision .

Well, I've made my mind to NOT join the scouts team

in Terengganu for an International Jamboree .

Because. (secret)

Well, it's something to do with my mom's life.

So. which one is more important, mom or jamboree ?

Yeah, I choose mom.

Okay, here's the story .

First. Mom is still in her best of health right now,

Second, the scouts are back after a week ,camping !

so, conclusion,

I've wasted my precious time doing nothing at home !

Arggggggghhhhhhhh.

If I just have those psychic abilities, I've probably knew what might

happen in the future,

Be a part of the jamboreee and taa-daa !
Mom is still alive .

And right now.

I'm totally envious of my what-so-call friends . LOL ;)

but no worries dear , I wouldn't budged an inch to stabbed you or something

so, till then , live the time of your life .

The end :)

p/s : Guess why am I writing all this in my dear-blog ?

Well, I've just read an article entitled. How to Handle Your Jealousy ,on a site called

Wikihow . Well, it says. " Communicate Your Feeling "
So. yeah. You don't always need to have a REAL person in front

of you to communicate right. Probably, this is my way of

COMMUNICATING ;)

I'M FEELING AWESOME AFTER THE SPEAK OUT

try em' yourself :]

In Mood To Write .

Sometimes, you'll never know your talent until

You are in a total critical situation where you had N0 choice but to follow

exactly what you've been told.

So. well here's my story.

Hrmmm. I kinda hate Art.

Wait. Not kinda . but Freaking hate. percent ?

well. INFINITY :)

So. here's one day when my Art teacher got really mad at me cause

I got a Freakin' 30% for my ART EXAMINATION . * IM JUST TOO AWESOME. I KNOW THAT

Hey.I didn't actually did that bad you know, its just

. I substituted the (poster paint) with some ( Black,Blue, and Pink markers).

LAIN DARI YANG LAIN LAA KATAKAN :)

No biggie right. Its still an ART. By the way. It was written clearly in the

instruction paper that all students are required to use ONLY

water colour OR poster paint in their art

I kinda missed that point though. So. my bad !

and Here's the best part,

I got the highest score in ARTS for my final-year examination ! *in whole form.

I'm not trying to boast or something.

what i really wanna say is

Try something even though you hate em' * its worthy

There's something more I wanna talk about.

something related to ARTS to.

but i guess. Time is surely running fast.

so. Gotta chase em before it slips away .

BTW. Time and Tide waits for no man *girl :)

signing out .

Untitled.

LIFE SUCKS AND YOU'LL DIE.
p/s : THERE WILL BE NO ENTRY FROM this BLOGGER'S AUTHOR
UNTIL SHE'S ALRIGHT
TO TALK ABOUT HER HER DAMNSHIT LIFE :|

* kbyufkwyfv6cuvyricvryvc9 *

I sucks -,-

Wait . How to start an entry ?

Good day sunshine(s) ?

Hello peeps ?

Hey there,I can seeeeee you ?

Okay. whatever . *These are one of the side-effects caused by the LONG-TIME-NO- WRITE disease:) *Lol. Lost memories ?

So. Hello World . How’s life ?

No reply. Uh. How I wished I could get a respond from ,urrmm , the blog itself ?

Or from someone who actually read this ?

*Haiz , no ordinary human would actually type my blog URL on their search column . why ? Because they hate me so much. Why again ? Because they judge me on physical appearence and someone who over-reacted . And not forgetting. Hypocrite J

Laughing here. Hey. Who cares. Hate me ? And thats called jealousy. Thats the only therm I could think of : )

So . I feel like I AIN’T NOTHING lately.

And my mind. I’ll explode. Too many stuffs to think at one time .

Too many. Other girls would proberbly list their problem in their

Privated blog page or in their diary, but me ? <~~~ She’s and idiot plus a total secretive.

The truth is my Heart . Urmmm, is. urm . WORD FAILURE L

Why can’t I ever be honest to myself.

I lied each day. Dying inside when i see those smile that kill be without leaving a scar. Being not able to speak out my mind and thinking way to much. Pretend i’m strong *like a guy* . Cry seldomly. Fake a smile like . always .

Hate how my friends treat me but never had the initiative to tell them the truth.

And again. Pretend that boys are my number one enemy.

Each time I talk to a boy. I talk broadly. Like I’m too good,unbeatible or in one word. PERFECT.

Why the hell did i even behave that way. I’ll regret after each conversation with a boy.

I’ll think of each and every word i’ve said to them and feel like cutting my tongue into pieces.

I hate it when my mind can’t control my mouth. -,-

Okay. This is a longer entry that i have expected .

So . Pray that I will live and continue my entries in the future. Haha. K

I'm wrong :(

dear teacher .

thank you for making me realized

that I ain't nothing

have zillion number of haters

not responsible

and not forgetting , thank you

for telling me something i don't know.

something that cut a deep scar

at the deepest part of my heart.

well,I can't believe that someone

that i called "close friend" can actually

be the best BACKSTABBER ever !

well. i was wondering, if even someone

close to me hates my like never before,

how about , others ?

sigh. I thought , things had change for me .

i really thought they did, but when the same

things (which happened before ) repeated again

i was speechless . tears can't stop pouring

andand my heart is too heavy .

like I'm carrying a burden.

much larger than my weight.

i don't know. nothing will just be fine like before

i'll perhaps shed more tears.

looking at those smiles from a distance

without bothering to join

and my heart will be as cold as an iceberg,

never melt even in a warm place

goodbye happiness.

i could feel that there is no more love in my heart,

its gone.

thanks once again to this someone

who made me lock the door of happiness,forever,

i can't even give a sincere smile to someone

without faking one !

teacher, what have I done.?

you hate me so much till you have the heart to embarass me

in front of everyone.

trust me, I will never hate you.

as I said, you've told me something i don't know :)

and to that backstabber . goodbye :}

Owh. it does'nt mean I will never talk to you

its just, i will have no heart while talking to you.

well. everything's fake when i'm with you **.

no one will understand how i'm feeling right now,

to hard to bare *just too hard.

once again,

thankyou teacher.

and goodbye backstabber :)